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Happiness is a Dirty Mirror

February 3, 2012 by Kathryn 11 Comments

Do you ever have those days when you just look and feel fabulous? Your hair is behaving, you’re wearing an outfit that you love and your self-esteem is through the roof? If you need those days more often, do I ever have a secret for you! Whatever you do…don’t dust your mirrors!

rose coloured glasses I discovered this trick a few days ago. I was glancing in my bedroom mirror as I passed by and I realized that I looked really, really good! My hair framed my face perfectly, my skin looked smooth and flawless and my eyes were bright and sparkling. I grinned, primped and totally enjoyed it; it’s always nice to realize that you look good without having gone to any special effort!

The next day, I had the same experience. I was thrilled, but also a little surprised. I hadn’t put on any makeup or even brushed my hair yet! And it was then that I realized that it was the slight layer of dust that was currently covering the mirror that was making me look so darn good! Basically, it softened my features. Imperfections in my skin and fine lines were no longer visible. My slightly dirty hair looked clean and perfect. My dusty mirror had become my own personal airbrush artist!

The experience got me thinking about the way us women look at the world sometimes. For the most part, our gazes tend to be squeaky-clean. We view our surroundings and ourselves with all the harshness of an overly bright florescent light bulb. And when we do, we realize that there are imperfections in almost everything, especially ourselves.

Maybe, just maybe, we need a slight layer of dust over our gazes. With a softened view of the world, we may see that all those glaring imperfections are no longer even visible. We might find that we look downright gorgeous and that the world around us does too. Maybe those rose-coloured glasses aren’t such a farfetched concept after all.

Self-esteem isn’t about attaining perfection. It’s about feeling good about yourself, your environment and your life in general. You don’t have to work your butt off to reach that point. You don’t have to stress about your appearance, your kids’ behaviour or the state of your house. It’s really just a matter of perception. All you need to do is airbrush your view of the world.

You’ll be amazed by how wonderful your life really is when you look at it through a slight layer of dust!

Share and Shine

January 17, 2012 by Kathryn 2 Comments

If there is one thing that I absolutely love, it’s learning new things. I love it so much that it almost doesn’t matter what I’m learning as long as I’m learning something. And thanks to the Information Revolution, I can usually find out about anything I choose with just a few quick keywords. Yes…I am a total Google diva.

I love the fact that information about any topic is so easy to find and I am incredibly grateful that so many people took the time to share all their learning just so that other people could benefit from it. So when I see other women hiding tidbits of knowledge to themselves, it makes me think…

I believe knowledge is meant to be shared. It doesn’t matter what the knowledge is. If somebody can benefit from it, it should be passed along. But I didn’t always believe that. There was a time when I guarded my knowledge more fiercely than a Doberman guards a junkyard.

The memory that comes back to me most often is one from high school when I happened to bring a homemade snack for my lunch. I shared it with my friends and one of them mentioned that she would love to have the recipe. I smiled politely, but the only thought in my head was, “No WAY am I giving out my recipe!!”

That’s something I would never do today. After all, if I give somebody the instructions for making the same dish, does that make the dish I create any less delicious? But thinking about that time got me thinking about WHY I had been so unwilling to share my knowledge.

And the answer to that question, I soon realized, was my lack of self-esteem. I didn’t believe that I had any value. So when somebody expressed a desire for something that I knew, for something that I HAD, I felt validated. Even if I didn’t have any value, something I knew was valuable and if I kept that knowledge to myself, then nobody else would have that little grain of value that I had. Sure, I might be worthless. But I knew something that wasn’t worthless and if I was the only one that knew it then that was almost the same as me being worth something myself.

Getting over that crippling lack of self-esteem wasn’t easy. It took lots of effort, lots of tribulation and, yes, lots of learning. Today I am proud to say that I am a strong and self-confident woman and as a result, I am not only willing to share knowledge with others, I am happy to do so. In fact, if somebody asks me a question that I can’t answer, I will go and find the answer for them if I possibly can! I love helping others and I’m so glad that I’ve grown to become the type of woman that can do so without a second thought.

Wouldn’t the world be a wonderful place if everybody did the same? If we could ask anybody anything and know that they would be willing to answer, or maybe even help us find the answer? Wouldn’t the blogosphere be a better place? I like to think that the blog community is, by nature, a community that shares more freely. After all, we share our stories and ourselves on our blogs each and every day! But every once in a while I notice a return to that mindset that I saw so much of in high school, a comment or a conversation that practically screams, “Well, if you don’t know then I’m not going to tell you!” And it breaks my heart because I know that the motivation behind the attitude is that old enemy of so many women in the world, low self-esteem.

So how can a woman rid herself of that fear, that prevalent, horrifying fear that she isn’t good enough?

It isn’t easy.

But it isn’t hard either.

What worked for me was constantly telling myself that I was a wonderful person. I told myself again and again and again. When you repeat something like that long enough, it becomes a reality. But it takes time. And it takes work. And when you’re feeling depressed, hurt or inadequate, telling yourself something like that is difficult. But when you do it enough, you really do become the person you keep telling yourself you are.

And when that happens, you realize that your worth doesn’t come from what you look like, what you have or even what you know. In the end, your worth is maybe just measured by whether or not you shine a little bit more light into the world.

Let’s light up the world together. We all have gifts we can share, if we’re not afraid to share them.

And when we do…we all shine.

What Makes You Unique?

November 30, 2011 by Kathryn 10 Comments

When I attended BlissDom Canada in mid-October, the very best session I attended was one that featured some of Canada’s best-known writers and editors including the fabulous and talented Nadine Silverthorne, editor of Today’s Parent magazine. Recently, Nadine put forward a challenge to Canadian mom bloggers in her quest to discover fresh new voices in the blogosphere. “Write a post,” she told us all. “Make it sparkle. Tell me what makes you unique.”

kathryn and zackary lavallee — Me and my son, happy to be together

I knew I wanted to answer the call but when I sat down at the computer, the question that kept whirling around in my mind was this: what makes my blog different from all the other Canadian mom blogs online? What makes me different?

And then, in a flash of insight, I realized that I knew the answer.

Nothing.

Nothing makes me different from all the other intelligent and fabulous women in the Canadian blogosphere. We all have a story to tell. We all have funny anecdotes about our children. We all have a touching moment that makes other moms start to cry when we talk about it. We all have likes, dislikes, ideas, goals, secrets and, above all else, love for our children.

We all deserve to be heard.

Like every other mom blogger, I have a special fondness for the very first post I ever wrote. It was a review for Ecco Bella blush and even after almost two years of blogging, I still think it’s one of the best reviews I’ve ever written.

Like every other mom blogger, I feel that the best pieces on my site are the personal ones, the ones about my children or about myself. My all-time favourite post? Definitely the one in which my five-year-old tells me what he thinks a crack in the road is called.

life in small-town Saskatchewan — Zackary and his friend flying a dragon kite in a Saskatchewan field

Like every other mom blogger, I stay up way too late. I’m writing this blog post at one in the morning and I am really not looking forward to getting my son ready for Kindergarten tomorrow morning!

Like every other mom blogger, I sometimes find that my best writing is a piece I do for somebody else.

So what makes me different?

Maybe it’s the fact that I know we all have our own unique voice. Maybe it’s my desire to hear every one of those voices if possible. Maybe it’s not so much what I say on my site that makes me different. Maybe it’s simply who I am.

I am Kathryn Lavallee. I have two incredibly mischevious and intelligent young boys. My husband is eleven years older than me. I have a thirteen-year-old stepdaughter. I’m the oldest of five kids. I bite my nails. I was a completely out-of-control teenager. I have lived in the same small Saskatchewan town my entire life. Writing is like breathing to me. Those are just a few of the things that make me different. Not all of them are talked about on my blog. But they all help make me who I am.

Curtis, Zack and Ben Lavallee playing with slot cars — My husband and two beautiful boys playing with slot cars

In the end, what I have to say is no more or less valuable than the words of any other mother in Canada. That is what makes blogging..and Canada…so wonderful. We all have our story to tell. With nothing more than a computer and an Internet connection, we all have the ability to share that story with the world. And that sharing is what makes me, and every other blogger in Canada, truly unique.

I’d love to hear from you! What makes you and/or your blog unique? Make sure to leave the link to your website, if you have one, and I’ll come check it out!